So many years
Kat, Chris, and
I spent in hiding, afraid my
ex-husband would find us and return us to the horror that was our lives.
Who do you open to, trust, let past all your barriers?
The answer...the only SAFE answer is...
...but each other. Kat and my son lived the horror with me, so I could not trust anyone but them to know me, to share the ups and downs life tosses all our ways.
Two bouts of cancer...throughout them I tried masking much of what I endured from my children...(children should not have to deal with weakness within the one charged with being strong enough to meet THEIR needs.)
March 28, 2010 Carrie Ro, my glorious editor, sent
SANTA IS A LADY to Lea Schizas. I had no idea who Lea was, and well, she wasn't open yet. We'd met Carrie via a publisher both Kat and I knew we could not submit my things to, and we also had to get Kat away from. Trusting Carrie, who was Kat's editor at the other place wasn't a
leap-of-faith...she'd earned our respect.
Five hours after Carrie sent Lea my manuscript I had a contract.
Entering a new place on virutally the ground floor, was a miracle because
Lea and Litsa are so very different from that other publisher and the editor and agent I'd had a decade earlier.
Muse quickly became so much more than a simple publishing house.
Every person who has crossed through the doors of Muse has filled the pieces of the
hearts Kat and I have spent so much of our lives protecting.
I have done many blog postings praising many of my brothers and sisters here at Muse, but I had a
mini-stroke right before joining Muse and I had another one
five weeks ago. When you add the sporadic memory challenges from them to the visual and physical limitations caused by the car accident I had back on 9/22/01 sometimes I wonder how I manage to create intelligent sentences let alone as many stories as I have and why so many of you tolerate my missteps.
More to the point, I cannot hold the names of all of you inside my head when I am writing my postings, so some of you do not get the
accolades you so richly deserve from both Kat and I...so to all of you, please
and know we love you and wish only the best?
To that end, I am going to try to name you all here, but know ahead of time, I may forget a name or two...or more...I swear it is unintentional, and we
DO love you and the important place you hold within our Muse Family.
Sara...your courage alone is a beautiful thing to be the focus of. Thank you Dear Lady for being someone willing to reach out, and tell your daughter, she's very lucky to have you for her Mom. We moms would walk through the fires of Hell for our children, wouldn't we?
Delilah...You gave those of us in the beginning the promise of what Muse would become back before our doors ever opened. Your covers are magical, but you are more than the artist.
I could not believe Kat and I were the only ones to send you a signed copy of a print book. I think we're also the only ones to send Lea a signed copy.
You and Tiger give so unstintingly of your artistic souls it just seemed natural to us to give everyone involved with bringing Kat's book to print a signed copy.
You know how deeply Kat and I love you and Tiger. The two of you have had to live through many of the same types of hell's fires we have, and yet you have emerged from it with so much artistic beauty still alive within you.
We never received a Tiger
cover, but loved everything he did for those authors lucky enough that did. His vision will be missed, although his health always must be first...that plus, I bow to him in gratitude for his service and sacrifice to this Country during its actions in the first Gulf War.
Be well Tiger and know Kat and I treasure you and Dee.
The same with you Tir...You give me back my was' but you also give both Kat and I unconditional love and friendship.
I received my divorce right before Christmas and I will never forget how that became my best ever gift.
My Queen of all things
Dragon...Kat and I are both so glad you got your final exit from the place you and she both had to fight free from and can now concentrate on revamping what was always yours. Anything Kat and I can do to help...we're here for you.
Barbara E. I gave you your goddess because you bring magic and joy to those of us lucky enough to call you sister and friend.
You share with us the trials your life must wade through and stand firmly with us through ours. Your staunch loyalty has been like a rock we just don't know how to praise adequately, or thank you for with the true enormity of how much you mean to us. But you do!
Barbara B. Whenever I see your name commenting on any of my far too frequent blogs, it makes my
heart smile. Your kind words, your support through our health challenges...Thank you.
Wendy L. You know how much we love you. You brought so much enthusiasm and eagerness to help your fellow Musers. You are a joy to share this family world with.
Kay Dee...God, Darling, I hope you know how deeply we care about you? You are a treasure...you are both a sister and a deliciously cherished friend. Love you, Sweetie.
Chrystalla...I am so looking forward to the next story you share with us. You and so many others make Kat I feel like we have spent time exploring the world because you bring it to us.
Rosalie...from Down Under...
I am honored to be a guest contributor on your blog. You offered that to me right from the start. I will never abuse it, but to entrust someone with your own blogspot is huge and such a giving thing to do. Thank you.
Oh My God Heather...finding the words for you. We met in the beginning, and your smile, your charm, and your energy reaches through the cyberworld to enchant us both. We love you, Darling.
cousin made you an automatic sister, although we didn't know it, before you stepped into the Muse household, and the pics of you at the Muse Retreat together adds to the good feelings we both have for you. We've only just begun.
Sue...you've given us a sister and New Zealand. Kat and I have been in love with New Zealand since purchasing the extended versions of The Lord of the Rings trilogy. Watching the "stars" of that trilogy and the staff that worked on it praising New Zealand made us both long to be a part of its magic. Through you we now are.
I don't even know how to express what you mean to us.
You were the first to entrust me with your book with another publisher to do a cover blog for.
I was so awed and humbled by that.
You had no reason to think I was capable of doing well by you, yet you trusted me anyway.
Thank you from the bottom of my heart. You also gave us Scotland the one place Kat and I have ALWAYS wanted to visit. Thank you so much for your pictorial accounts of your travels.
Penny E. You are another one I just don't know if I have the words to express all that you mean. You gave me my very first offer to guest on an author's blog. I have been in awe of authors all my life...even though I grew up with the likes of James Michener and Pearl S. Buck visiting our home on a regular basis. Authors are truly the
unsung superstars...and I never thought I would one day become one of you. When you asked me...ASKED ME...to guest on your blog, it was the second most spectacular thing to have happened to me in 2010. The first was Lea contracting SANTA IS A LADY. But you didn't stop there...you extended your heart, your friendship, and your unwavering belief in both Kat and I. How to say THANK YOU, to you? But we do thank you...and love you.
Arlene W. Wow you have no idea how rich Kat and I feel we are.
Your ongoing support and attendance when we do our blogs and the BTR show mean the world to us...especially given how frequently our health issues force us to make last minute changes when we so don't want to.
Kat and I dealt with some really difficult patches this year, but you jumped in like a hero and stood firmly at our side. Brothers that stand with us have been so rare as to be non-existant even though between us, Kat and I had four biological brothers. It is you, Kevin, Brad, Glenn, Jim, Mike, Frank, and Brian who have shown us the acceptance and yes, love that can exist between brothers and sisters. Thank you.
Mike and Cynthia...
Oh God another first...you two entrusted me to do a cover blog for your JOINT collaboration with another publisher,
My Life As A Dog, even before I had done one for you, Mike. Through interaction as I created that, you both became family. Cynthia, we adore you. Mike, I am again at a lost for adequate words.
Greta...If you did nothing more than make Kat smile, which you do all the time, I would love you. A rocky beginning did not torpedo us and I am soooo glad it didn't. We both love you and are delighted you are a part of the Muse family.
the road travelled by you, Kat and me to get here is the same one. It was strewn with so much disenchantment, yet here we are, happier, and at a place that values what we do and who we are. You are a sister in every sense of the word, and a friend we both are delighted is here with us now.
Like Ellee and several others, you weathered the hurricane and have become a cherished member of this glorious Muse family that is so magical and such a great joy after the path we walked to get here.
If I keep this up I am going to start becoming so repetitve you all are going to get bored...But the torrent of yesteryear makes being here and having you as a Muse sister all the richer. We bonded before Muse, but Muse makes all our bonds so much stronger.
we almost lost you
and I haven't the words to tell you how deeply that bothered us...and we didn't even know you yet...thank God you stayed and in staying, have become a cherished friend to both of us.
Everyone who enters Muse is special. Lea and Litsa would not have it any other way, but some stand out a little bit more, and those are the ones that are making Muse the success and loving place it is. Thank you so much for being one of them
like us you found
sisters here at Muse and family support. In this intensely busy, problem laden world, finding Muse and the caring people here is nothing short of a miracle. I believe nothing happens by coincidence...so our wiser Higher Selves lead us to where we need to be...I am glad our HS's led us to Muse and at the same time.
two names are needed to hold the richness of your heart's bounty. We love You Darling Girl. You've been here from the start and it only gets better.
You have brought the male counterpart to us of Ginger. She keeps us laughing, and you dear man, do the same. You are so charming, and so endearing. Laughter is such a treasured gift and you give it with equanimity and charisma. Kat and I both adore you from the depths of our resonating spirits.
of the Muse Table...Chivalry is alive and well here at Muse, thanks to you. We love you, Dear Brother.
...when I was a girl, I remember watching movies that spoke of unsung heroes...I never knew what that meant...but I do now. You both mean so much to Kat and I. To enumerate all the ways here, would make Blogger blow a gasket or a zillion. Both of you are multiple goddesses...definitely as editors, but as friends as well. We adore you both.
...your insights when you leave comments or post onto the loops always make us feel such happiness. Thanks
Your name is as unique as you are kind. Muse allows us all to become close to the most incredible people and call them family.
like so many of our Muse sisters words cannot express the place you hold within the family that is Muse.
you too have been with us since the beginning. Muse has grown in richness since then, and so has our relationship as sisters within the Muse family.
I am a
Sagittarius, the archer, so when you entered Muse your name drew me out of that connection, but the sisterhood that has developed since rides more powerfully than any ride atop a centuar ever could.
You brought the school of wizards across the pond into the ice floed landscape of America's northern most clime...proving magic is what the world wants...and what all of us here in the Muse family are a part of.
I know I am still forgetting many of you and I will be kicking myself later when I realize how many of you I cannot immediately call forth, but please know this...
Muse IS Family,
Support. And this is the best time in my life and Kat's. You have all joined in to make Muse the extraordinary home it is.
This is Christmas Day, and in one week we begin the year
I KNOW in my heart Muse is going to continue growing and deepening because we are not JUST a publisher...how many JUST publishers have gone under in the almost two years I've been here at Muse?
A lot...but they were JUST publishers...
MUSE IS FAMILY
BUILDING THE TEAM TO ACHIEVE THE DREAM.
We love you all and look forward to another year of sharing the ups and downs with our Muse family.
Merry Christmas All and a Very Happy New Year.
Love You All,
Kat and Lin